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There is a stage when I get better where I feel like I'm boring. I haven't quite gotten back to the things that interest me, but not quite having the depression either. I am just this middle person that doesn't really know what I'm supposed to be talking about. That stage is where I think about giving up.I am keeping up with the wellness plan. I'm doing everything right, but I just don't feel interesting anymore. I am in that inbetween stage, where I don't remember what I truly enjoyed. I try to hang out with my friends, but I just don't know what to say to them.
I'm glad that my problems no longer define me and keep screwing up my relationships. I lost a few people or they are a bit distant now. I just desperately want to get back to being the charming, funny, happy version of me that I remember. I know that I've always been different, which made me interesting. I'm not sure if that was always because of my illness or if I was just different.
I am hoping that the boring stage is over with soon and that I will find what I love again.
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