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So today was going back and forth from the apartment and the house. I still have more stuff to bring over and I just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. There is just too much stuff. I know that it's 3 people's stuff over the last 30 years, but I swear my mother but in a bottle of baby oil from when I was a baby. She says it still smells good.I am just inundated with stuff and a lot of it is probably things that I don't need. I mean there is a thing of 25 rolls of toilet paper. I will probably be set for a few months there. My parents will help rearrange the place, but it's just so overwhelming. I never realized how much stuff I had until I moved to a smaller place and started tripping over everything. It's not the furniture, but just boxes everywhere.
I'm just so tired of all this shit. I need help with this. I'm going to hide in my bed.
I've also been dreaming about him because I miss him. I'm becoming what I'm supposed to be, but it's pretty lonely.
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