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I decided to write a few things that I have learned from my experience at my former company, which was more than slightly awful. I was working on something else, but this is probably more therapeutic.I have learned that even if they say they like you, they might be looking to take you down. I think that when I started I was coming off a bad situation and my self esteem was really low. The fact that they said I was well liked I internalized it to mean that I could trust them. That was my mistake.
I have also learned that women can be horrible to other women. I have never had a problem with a male as a boss or a coworker. I'm not sure if this is due to the fact that I am not typically female or that I admire men more. This might be due to my life long fascination and adoration for Freddie Mercury. It's not because I'm flirty, I think it's because I'm more direct and honest. This tends to threaten other women.
I have learned that work is another stage. I am a great actor and have to remember that it's a show. I'll be another great pretender. I just have to be upbeat and positive. I was told once I was a thermometer, which means I am a reflection of the mood of the office. I am working on trying to bring up the energy in an office when it drags. I believe in rewards and compliments. I also believe in honesty and due process.
I have learned that I need people that are on my level. There is a vast difference between someone with a high school education and a person like me with an MA. That doesn't mean that I don't have friends who are all MAs, but in a work environment it can make a big difference. I have been taught to analyze things and solve problems on an advanced level. I would like to work with people who are at least some what educated. That way we can have a conversation that is not personal. Maybe we can discuss Game of Thrones or something.
I have also learned how not to run a company. Procedures should be standardized throughout a company. It also helps with communication and performance reviews.
I am fantastic and I will find something.
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