SLike a lot of people around the world, I have a problem with my weight. I am significantly overweight at 235 pounds. Just seeing that number makes me want to vomit. I know that depression and my thyroid have a lot to do with my weight gain, but that doesn't make me any less upset.
The thing with me is that once I try to get into an exercise routine, my thyroid has issues and I lose all energy which means that I don't work out and gain weight like crazy. I also like food. I know that a lot of it is about portion control, but I think I have a thing for junk food. It's cheap and delicious. This combination has caused me to blow up like a balloon.
I've had a nutritionist before, and I know that I eat a lot of sugar. My other problem is soda. I gained a lot of weight because I've been drinking regular soda. I'm trying to cut that down on by switching to lemonade and juice since I drink them slower. I'm really working on trying to replace sugar with fruit, but I haven't brought myself to do it. Mostly cause I don't like a lot of fruit.
I also know that my weight is fueling part of my depression, my facial hair and my insulin resistance. I'm not going to lose weight to be able to fit into a size 2 because that won't happen. I am going to try to get healthy, which is something that I haven't been in quite a long time. I also hope to get off some of the medications, which will aid in my cutting of expenses. Health and wellness will be the goal for this year.
My body and I have not lived in harmony for quite some time because of the thyroid disorder and the mental issues, but I want to be better. I know that crash dieting or special dieting will not work. I just have to be sensible like I was in England where I ate better and walked everywhere. Maybe I should be living in a city. It's a lot easier when there are sidewalks. Maybe I'll have one day a month where I can eat what I want and that's it.
I know that getting healthy takes time and this is where I will learn patience. He told me once that patience wasn't a virtue, but a learned skill. Are certain people more disposed to being patient? Yes and I'm not one of them. I will be one of those people that has to learn it and work at it just like losing weight and getting healthy.
Destruction is easy. Healing is hard.