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I write because I have no one else to talk to. I have been thinking about all the crazy things that had happened this year. From everyone that I have spoken to, 2013 was a terrible year. However, I had achieved something that I believe was completely impossible. Maybe that feeling was impossible, but I'm still here and I have work to do.After the incident, I had fell apart. I let the depression that was already brewing take hold. It was a good 4 months to think clear enough again to be able to fight what happened. I don't remember the entire month of March, which is probably a good thing. I finally gathered up the courage by June to say enough and filed a formal complaint because of what happened. It would out in the end for me because the instigator was forced to leave, HR is now afraid of me because they know I will use my voice and somethings are healing.
I got up off the floor and started moving forward. I came up with a wellness plan, which I try my best to keep to. It doesn't always happen, but it's a guide in trying to get to a good place. Due to my thyroid acting up in November, a lot of it got put on hold. I'm working back up to exercising everyday, which will help me read at least 3 books a month. I always tend to to slack off when it comes to cooking once a week.
The one thing that happened was that I got him back. He left in June and I got him back in September. I would never underestimate a well written letter and the fact that caring never changed. Maybe it hurt too much or maybe I needed to be independent for once, but he still believed in me. I am starting a nonprofit in order to help other people with mental illnesses deal with their jobs and employers to help their employees. Communication and education are the keys to this new enterprise. I couldn't have done most of it without him.
I went through hell this year, but I am starting to heal. I hope 2014 will be a fantastic year full of progress. February will have a new long term goals list. The best part is that out of the 17 items, I completed at least 10. Maybe I'll get at least 2 more done. The rest of them will carry over. I am looking forward to what I can accomplish in 2014. There are a lot of things that can be done and I have the time.
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